Every so often, I like to look back through my LJ and see what I was thinking a year ago, and then two years ago, and so on. Today I dug out my handwritten journal, which I haven't used in ages, and did the same thing. It's kind of interesting. In LJ, I was saying pretty much the same thing a year ago as I am today!
- 'Essays make Anna go aaaaargh'
- I was talking about lacking in self-confidence, and stressing about how my songs were crap. And going to uni open days. Funny, although I still stress about the same things, I think I have moved on from there emotionally. Which is nice to know. Although it may be that I simply have different things to worry about!
I didn't write an entry on the 20/2/2004 - although judging from the closest entry, which is the 23/2, that was because I was in gang show at the time and therefore not actually anywhere near a computer. Gosh, gang show seems YEARS ago. Well, it was 3, I suppose. That's quite scary.
In my personal journal I didn't write anything on the 20/2/2006, but on the 18th, I was worrying about Trev... for pretty much the exact same reasons as this year. Ah well, I guess some things never change. The year before, the closest date I wrote on was the 27th, about how I liked the snow that had been falling, about open days, about talking to guys with some semblance of confidence (heh) and about Dido and Aeneas and the party at Hannah's... actually, that was a good party. My second year at college was pretty good, all things considered.
My journal doesn't go back any further than that - or rather, it does, but in another notebook, which is under my bed at my parent's house. That one goes back to the age of 12 or so, hehe.
And as for today? I was at a rehearsal for music theatre earlier, and have only got to write another 1000 words on my essay. Although I think I may end up going over the word count, which is weird, cos everyone else has had problems reaching it. This poetry essay is the only one I've written that I actually feel is good, though, so I'm feeling happy about it. Just got to finish it now. And I ate a Marks and Sparks ready meal, mmm, and bought strawberry tarts for me and Trev. Yum. And once I've handed in the essays tomorrow, I can go to the German play rehearsals and enjoy myself, and RELAX, and go to the pub afterwards... and all the stress will melt away.
Tomorrow is New Start Wednesday. And it's going to be good :)
Also, I've uploaded some new songs to my myspace, which is here: http://www.myspace.com/annastainton
Go listen and let me know what you think!