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After Spanish
Spanish has happened. It is now in the past. Which is what we did in the lesson. Why oh why oh why oh why oh why is it that I manage to make myself look like a fool? I think I have successfully convinced everyone that I have multiple personalities. There's bouncy 'I'm on the stage!' me, there's introverted 'won't they be sorry when I've got a record contract' me, there's shy 'secret stalker' me, there's extroverted 'who gives a fuck, Alex' me.... Every lesson I feel that they disdain me in a different way. I'm not surprised. Maybe if I made a bit more of an effort with myself, I wouldn't care so much. But too be honest, I'm so plain and ugly that it wouldn't make much difference. I struggle to look older than twelve. Gang show people think my sister is older than me. How's that for embarassing? Sometimes I just hate myself so much. But at the moment I can't be assed. Who gives a shit, really?