After Spanish
Jan. 21st, 2004 03:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mk_tortieSpanish has happened. It is now in the past. Which is what we did in the lesson. Why oh why oh why oh why oh why is it that I manage to make myself look like a fool? I think I have successfully convinced everyone that I have multiple personalities. There's bouncy 'I'm on the stage!' me, there's introverted 'won't they be sorry when I've got a record contract' me, there's shy 'secret stalker' me, there's extroverted 'who gives a fuck, Alex' me.... Every lesson I feel that they disdain me in a different way. I'm not surprised. Maybe if I made a bit more of an effort with myself, I wouldn't care so much. But too be honest, I'm so plain and ugly that it wouldn't make much difference. I struggle to look older than twelve. Gang show people think my sister is older than me. How's that for embarassing? Sometimes I just hate myself so much. But at the moment I can't be assed. Who gives a shit, really?
