I miss you...

But I don't know who you are. Where? When? How? I wish I had someone I could talk to. Then I wouldn't have to type my sad, lonely thoughts into internet message boards. I feel so bad, every time I am stood on the outside of a circle of people looking in a wishing that someone would think I was important enough to talk to. And somehow I think that this must be my fault. Somehow, I am allowing myself to slip into the position of an invisible person. And I don't know how!!! It makes me feel like weeping. I'm a person too, I have feelings, I'm not that ugly or annoying or boring. I hope. Or maybe I am. I just want to be loved by someone, I don't care who. SOMEBODY LOVE ME!!!


Help me. Please.

God, are you out there? Can you hear me? I really need help this time. You are always so good to me, but I'm still lonely. You do so much for me and I am so grateful. How can I get someone to love me? I want to be held in someone's arms. I know that you love me, but you can't hold me when I'm sad, and I only know you're listening through faith. Sometimes just words are nice. I hope I'm not asking too much, God, but you know I wouldn't ask unless I was deseperate. Please help me. I don't know how much longer I can stand this.

Amen