just so you know - I absolutely understand how you feel - I actually do. right down to the sibling jealousy issue.
self-esteem is gradually dawning on me as a thing that you can't just bring 'up' and it stays 'up' on it's own. unfortunately you have to work at it constantly - BUT I think that it does get better as things move on, as you feel like things are really coming into place and you're happy with how stuff is going.
I truly know how difficult it is to convince yourself that you actually fine when you go through stages like this, but perhaps you need to talk it through with Trev, and remind yourself of things you're sure of, like the fact that you ARE very intelligent and great at your subject (come on, you know it's true, your marks are amazing!), you have a fab boyfriend and a bunch of friends you love you unconditionally, you're totally in charge of your life, even if it seems like you're not.
I know it sounds really clicheed but go somewhere pretty, a garden or museum or building that you like, maybe on your own, and try and think things over positively! you'll be ok, you really really will. just believe in yourself! it's times like this that I realise all the cliches are actually true!!!
sorry about the amateur psychobabble ...ouch how embarrassing!! :D call me for a chat if you think it might help. lots of love, you gorgeous creature xxxxxxxxxxxx
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Date: 2006-07-11 09:41 pm (UTC)self-esteem is gradually dawning on me as a thing that you can't just bring 'up' and it stays 'up' on it's own. unfortunately you have to work at it constantly - BUT I think that it does get better as things move on, as you feel like things are really coming into place and you're happy with how stuff is going.
I truly know how difficult it is to convince yourself that you actually fine when you go through stages like this, but perhaps you need to talk it through with Trev, and remind yourself of things you're sure of, like the fact that you ARE very intelligent and great at your subject (come on, you know it's true, your marks are amazing!), you have a fab boyfriend and a bunch of friends you love you unconditionally, you're totally in charge of your life, even if it seems like you're not.
I know it sounds really clicheed but go somewhere pretty, a garden or museum or building that you like, maybe on your own, and try and think things over positively! you'll be ok, you really really will. just believe in yourself! it's times like this that I realise all the cliches are actually true!!!
sorry about the amateur psychobabble ...ouch how embarrassing!! :D call me for a chat if you think it might help. lots of love, you gorgeous creature xxxxxxxxxxxx