No lesson

[mk_tortie]

Don't think I'm going to get my driving lesson (no. 2!) tomorrow after all. Lorraine just told me her clutch has gone, so I think I'll be going home. Like now. I'm so hungry, but I don't have any money. And my stomach aches. Ho hum. Have fiddled around with this quite a bit now, think it looks quite good. Got my singing lesson tomorrow, I think it will be bad, as usual. I like my lessons, but I always come away feeling like I'm crap at singing. I need to get the whole chest voice thing sorted out, or I am really going to kill my voice. Bla. Bla. Bla. I was writing that earlier on a doodle and suddenly really missed Sara and Rosemary and my history lessons last year. I really wish that I hadn't gone to a different college from her. I can't talk to her nearly as much as I'd like, and I think I am actually going slowly insane. I'm definitely turning into a loner (not entirely through my own fault, being completely IGNORED may have something to do with it), which is why I'm sat in here typing this instead of being out there being pushed out of every circle of people. I talk to people and after about 30 seconds their faces close. So I shut up. How depressing is it to feel like a spare part in life in general? Very. I want someone who will like me, love me even, for who I really am. But I think I'll end up being on of those sad middle aged spinsters that everyone looks at and thinks 'How sad.' How sad.