University

[mk_tortie]

For the first time today, I think, I properly realised that from September, that is it. It's the first step to moving out. When I'm gone for term, I'll get back and find things have changed, and I won't have been around to see. Maybe it'll be like being slightly an outsider in my home.... I don't know, but it's the first step on the way to how it's going to be for the REST OF MY LIFE. And that's quite a daunting thought, to be honest.

I'm sometimes get struck by these things. And written, they look a bit pathetic, but I realise that I've never really thought about them that way, and to me they then seem suddenly momentous.

Oh dear. I am making no sense. But anyway... it's like a kind of mini-epiphany. Well, for me anyway. This may simply be lager fueled pensivity (if that's even a word). But hey, it's kind of interesting.

Comments

[born-to-try.livejournal.com]

you'll never be an outsider in your own home, silly! it's YOUR home - you're an integral member of it. it'll be just the same as always except you'll have a home at university as well! how exciting is that?! I think very. anyway, don't get freaked out by things changing, it's all good fun, and everyone's in the same boat - change is almost always good so don't worry my petite pal! x x x

[mk-tortie.livejournal.com]

Heh, reading back that post came out more depressive than intended - I was more struck by the weirdness of it all and the change than the scariness, heh. No, I know I'm obviously still going to be a member of my family, I just think it'll be weird that I'll be somewhere else and daily life will still be going on at home, if that makes sense? Guess it's just a kind of realisation that the world doesn't revolve around me.

Maybe should have realised that a LONG time ago.... heh. And don't get me wrong, I'm looking forward to the change, was just thinking about how a big a change it was actually going to BE. :)