Oh, the joy...

[mk_tortie]

I've just been thinking over the recording I've been doing the last couple of days, and there's some things that have really been bugging me. I mean, I was pleased with the stuff I put down, but I just feel so annoyed with my Dad sometimes. OK, so he pays for it, and I really am very, very grateful, but why can't he just keep his mouth shut sometimes? First, he tells me he thinks the chord I changed in one of my songs makes it sound all flat and 'blah'. Oh, well thanks, and I like your songs too.

And also there's the whole issue of production. The last couple of years, he and Dom have spent weeks and months working on Lisb's demo. That's fine. I know her stuff is better than mine, I know Dom has more ideas for it, so it makes sense for them to work on hers. And it sounded amazing when it was done. And now, she has time at weekends to go and work on her own stuff, adding things. I work, so I don't have time to do that. There's a very limited amount of time I have to spare to do stuff like that, so I need to find a time in some holidays to work on things. But even though they know this, do they do anything on my stuff? No. They work on my Dad's. It just makes me feel like no-one's particularly interested in my things. Lisb's always had guitar teachers etc interested, but I've never really had that. Plus the fact that writing songs on piano is bloody difficult. Also, I'm not as prolific as her.

Gah, I sound all jealous. I'm really not. I just wish I could be as creative and stuff. I feel really second hand sometimes.

Hmmm... Oh well. It's not all bad. Peace and light and joy and all that.... at least I'll be an adult in a week's time.

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[born-to-try.livejournal.com]

don't worry I know that second hand feeling!! my sister is "the pretty one", and was at Oxford, and it feels like she's just generally better, but it turns out it's all just in my head cos everyone values us both for our differences, and our different talents so it's all goooood!!! ok I'll stop rambling now but don't worry, be happy, and get into the groove of the gamelans!! hehe! bye then! x x x